I’ve never really asked myself this question before.
I know that with challenge comes growth, goals accomplished and so and so forth. I like growth and accomplished goals. BUT…Do I like to be challenged?
I think some people do – they really thrive on it and need it.I think some people really don’t – they like the results, but don’t like the process.
Which one am I?This question came to mind because of the therapy on my leg – I was told I need to challenge it all the time or I won’t improve. Of course this makes sense, but I really hate it. Standing on one leg hurts and I’m shaky and sure I’m going to come crashing down at any second. Bending my knee as far as it can go and then pulling on it to go farther hurts a lot and my leg shakes and yeah I hate it.
So I think I’m one of those people that don’t like to be challenged. I want to get better so I’ll do it, don’t worry, but I don’t know if I’m ever going to like it.I got thinking back on my life and came to the conclusion that I pretty much dislike and avoid challenge if I can.
Grade 12 I dropped Math 30 – got pulled into the office with my teacher, guidance councillor and the principal because me dropping it was so out of line. Sounds crazy, but I see their point I did have a 93% grade, but I’d looked ahead and seen the future work and I knew it would be hard. The group was there to assure me that I could do it. Here’s the thing, I knew I could do it. I know this sounds arrogant but I’d been raised I could do anything if I put my mind to it and at 17 I totally believed that. The fact was I didn’t want to. I knew it would be a challenge and I knew I’d have to work at it and I didn’t need it to graduate and so against all of their arguments I stood my ground and dropped it.Most of what I do comes fairly easy to me. It isn’t that I don’t work at it, but it isn’t particularly hard or a huge struggle and if it is I don’t do it. I’m lazy that way.
Parenting and being married are the exceptions to this rule because neither comes really easy and both have been a huge struggle and super hard at times. If I’m to be honest in those moments my first instinct is to be done with it. You know the old, I’m so tired of this, this is too hard, I quit. I feel this way, but I don’t quit. I carry on working toward figuring out any way humanly possible to make it as easy peasy as possible because I don’t like to be challenged!
I spend a pile of time, stream lining, working on routines, keeping things as status quo as possible because I really don’t like to be challenged…..Sigh……………
I think I need to get over this. I think I need to figure out a way to enjoy the process. Not only would life be more enjoyable, but I would grow and accomplish more………….Again, Sigh…….
That sounds like it’s going to be a challenge…………………..